The Weakness

Excerpt from June 8th, 2013:

"...Lord, help me run fast to you on mornings like today. I feel especially weak today. And today I feel brokenhearted. Today I just want to cry and moan for the brokenness. For how a man can treat a woman in this world. For how a parent can treat a child. For how an orphan is abandoned. For how my family is so far away. Father, help me recognize this weakness as a good thing- a blessing even!

For when I am weak, then I am strong. Lord help me recognize my weakness as another way that you pursue me. You use my brokenness to push me into your arms. I love your arms. How they hold me. How they comfort me.

I love my King. How he saw no obstacle too great to COME FOR ME. Not his status as God; not his perfection against my sinfulness; not even his perfect understanding against my stupidity. Nothing was big enough to keep him from coming for me. Not even his own separation from the same relationship he offers to me with Almighty God was an obstacle too great for him.

What a love. What a lover."

I just wanted to share a reality that I've been learning lately. (We even talked about it at church this morning in Mark 10.) Really- I am in a constant state of weakness. I just pridefully and sinfully don't recognize it most of the time. But, especially lately, the Lord pursues me with the reality of my weakness so that I will draw near to him. And I recognize more and more how every circumstance I face- joyful or sad, blessing or curse- is always just meant to push me towards HIM. Accept these nudges from him, it is SO worth it.

Mark 10:49
When Jesus heard him, he stopped and said, "Call him." So they called to the blind man, "Cheer up! On your feet! He's calling you!"

2 Cor 12:9-10
Each time he said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That's why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.